All You Faggots Out There Can Give it a Rest

Weather sure has taken quite a turn today, and it appears that it might be sticking around for a while...but ofcourse, winter is here! Put away your bathing suits and don your "gay apparel", santa claus is coming to town!! Ha!, well even if he was I dont think he could give me what I really want this year. But that's another story. Last night I went to see Margaret Cho at a local college; she was doing a special appearance stand-up gig in the local Dallas community and there was a guy who did his stand-up before her. He was quite a flamer. I could stand the gay jokes for a little bit but once Cho got on stage and pretty much mocked my faith and blasphemed the Word of God to the highest degree, not to mention slandering our president's name, I got up and left, my friends still sitting there. i wonder how many other christians sat through that disgrace of a show.....I now have absolutely ZERO respect for Margaret Cho, and I am sure there are others who feel that way!

Hmmm.....one week left and I am moving into my own apt....feels kinda weird.....the military has offered me $12,000 to join special forces....hmmmm.....maybe I have a calling that I havent discovered yet....I dunno.....so much to worry about right now, yet I shouldnt be worrying because God has everything in control and it is all in his hands, however....apt rent...college...car repairs.... family.... job .....and now special forces.....who knows where I will be a year from now. God knows I dont! Speaking of issues, I am still pissed that my beautiful friend Hang isnt in the picture much anymore. I still think about her often and even though we dont hang out quite as much as we used to, I still feel strongly for her and have given it to God, and at this point, if he has plans for her and me then it will happen in due time. I still pray for her because I see her in a place in her life where she is still immature and vulnerable for any asshole out there to take advantage of her. I have had feelings for women I have been with in the past and it was a normal basic affection, but for this girl i have discovered the true and Godly love that can only be developed through a genuine heart. Ok, I have said enough; I will pick up here in the next entry.