Screw the Drama

Why is it that throughout the day I have moments or experiences which inspire me to write about , yet when I actually get online to write it out, my mind takes a memory shit? It seems to happen to me pretty often. Ahh, such is life......life......life...... what is the meaning of life? And I'm not referring to a cheesy Monty Python movie which parody's the process of life's trials here. I'm talking about our purpose on this earth. I dont know what my life's purpose is most of the time. I think that we finally figure it out on our death bed..... I mean, there is no other time in which life seems more clear to us. It makes sense to me..... youre lying there a breath away from death, thinking about what you did and what you didnt do, what you coulda, shoulda, and woulda done, but instead you wouldnt do it, so therefore you didnt. Don't you think if God wanted us to figure things out then he wouldve given us a "user's guide" manual to life? I think the meaning of life is within your very soul, and no person, place or thing can tell you otherwise.

I try to figure out women and all their weird, psychological deficiencies and they still never cease to amaze me. The woman is one of God's greatest gifts to man, yet she is one of mans greatest downfalls. If you read about it throughout scripture you will see that the woman causes man, and God, the greatest grief and frustration. In Proverbs, ch. 5-7 it speaks about the adulterous woman and calls her the "eyes of evil". Im not saying that all women are evil, they're just tainted.... maybe, I dont know. Anyone reading this needs to take a look at Proverbs, ch. 8. It speaks of Christ and how he was there in the beginning. Its a very powerful chapter and it blew me away..... why does there have to be so much strife and hatred in this world? You would think that people would want to get along with eachother since this life is so short, but men and women get married and have kids and make it last for years and years, only to call it quits and end up hating eachother. Then the kids have to be in the middle of this little thing we call "divorce". It's a pretty shitty deal, and on top of it all, the new marriages come in the picture, and you have everyone from the old marriage at odds with everyone in the new marriage, and vice-versa; everyone feels they have to let their voice be heard, like the people in the other party owe them something.

Why does it have to be so fucking childish and stupid? This stupid drama is the reason why we have less and less solid grounded family relationships in this world. Parents and children end up having crappy relationships, and its not just family. It's all one big mess, and until people get off their high horse and put the past behind them and forget about their inferiority complexes and stop being so insecure, the drama just might possibly be resolved some day. This "he said, she said" bullshit needs to go out the window and people need to concentrate less on being "right" all the time, and let go of the self-righteousness and the "i'm a victim" complex and learn to love one another. The only way to accomplish this task, (well its not really a task, its more like a goal), is through consistant and steadfast prayer and study of scripture, which I am learning is the only way i can have true peace in my life; but for others it's marriage, or whatever. Focusing on God's Word will allow them to stop focusing on their selfishness and how much they feel they have been "wronged". Until then we will continue to suffer the drama and broken relationships.

-One damn pissed off guy