Cars and Life's Drama

Last saturday night I was leaving Bally's Gym and my car wouldnt start. So my friend Dave came and picked me up in his new "rasied" off-roading yukon and we left it there until Monday where AAA towed it to a bodyshop Dave trusted to be pretty fair. Turns out that I needed a new temp regulator for the coolant and it costed me about $200. so that pretty much clears over $4,000 I have already unloaded unto that car of mine in a three week period..... Uh, now the car is pretty much rebuilt and anyone who buys it from me will be getting a pretty sweet ride, but it kinda sucks that I will most likely not be getting back what i put into it when i do sell it. Oh well.

Tuesday night was pretty awesome. I met up with my cousin Melanie at this cool new church she goes to and after the youth/college group was finished I went with her friends to Bennigans and we hung out for a while, but it sucked cuz Melanie had to be home by 9:30 so we had to go to Bennigans without her. it was fun though, and she has some really cool friends, and her girlfriends are kind of cute too. Hell, the last thing I need to be thinking about right now is girls. I need to make sure I am getting my education and stable in a solid job or career before I commit to anyone. Bottom line; it's all about the Benjamins and substance, and I need to establish myself before I can offer a woman anything. So I was watching this movie "Born Yesterday" with John Goodman, Don Johnson, and Melanie Griffith. The movie is about how this rich business man (Goodman) hires a reporter (Johnson) to teach his stupid wife (Griffith) how to act in the public light, because, she was, well, STUPID. As I watched this movie it reminded me of all those other dumb blonde bitches out there, and mostly, it reminded me of how fucked up my own life is.

I grew up having to abandon the school I was a part of every two years or so, and sometimes even once a year because my dad's job was always moving us around. I have been in over 9 schools in my 12 years of education and when I was pulled from these schools during the middle of the year (which was sometimes the case), I was enrolled into a new school in a new city in a new state and they had no choice but to put me into a class that wasnt "full" at the time, and 9 times out of ten they were not the class that I needed to obtain the GPA needed for that scholastic quarter. My dad retired out of the Navy and entered into a new job by the time I was 16 and that is when we settled into a small town in Texas, and there I enrolled into 11th grade at my sr. high school. It was then that the staff in charge of my transcripts realized that my credits had been royally screwed up over the last 11 yrs, and that most of my classes I was required to take, (as a junior), in order to fix what had been messed up and to be caught up to the 11th grade level, were classes I should've been taking as a freshman. So bottom line, I really didnt learn much during my 12 yrs in school, and it turns out I had to resort to getting my GED. Shit, I never even learned about sex or drugs at home either. Truth is, my close aunt taught me about sex and I learned about drugs from MTV. Ha! So I can really feel for those kids out there that have to move around constantly and I know that it really is a hinderance on one's education. It sucks having to start over every year or two and make new friends all over again...........

So now that I have completed the last chapter in my life, (which has taught me that freedom, infact, is not free, and that the very essence of freedom has a taste to it that those who have not fought for it will never experience), I am ready to move on and open a new chapter which will either consist of persuing an education in college, serving time once again in the special forces, or experiencing a new world and culture as I am led to another country. But I need to pray about it before i make any life-changing decisions. Maybe you, the reader, can help me out there as well. God is only a breath away.